If you want it; go for it...............

There was a time in my life when I was so into Mary Englebreight.  At that time I had a friend, Mary Grace,
who liked it also.  Maybe I was so into it because Mary was or maybe I was into it because I loved Mary Grace so.   Mary Grace was in the last years of her battle with breast cancer.  So I bought everything Mary Englebreight I could.  I asked for it for birthdays, Christmas, Mother's Day; any occasion that called for a gift. One day I saw a greeting card by my favorite decor maker.  On the front it said, "There is no  more lovely, friendly, and charming relationship,  communion, or company than a good marriage. Anon"  Around the verse was a sweet robin, a key and a red heart shaped lock, pretty  flowers and vines.  I loved the card and I bought it.  It was the verse that spoke so softly to my heart.  This is what I wanted more than anything.  My marriage was good; having it's share of ups and downs, twists and turns, joys and sorrows.  All of them held together by the vows we shared before God.  But I wanted more.  I wanted something; something that I really couldn't put my mind around.  And I knew that I would know it when I had it.  I held on to the card; not using it at times that called for a wedding card.  It stayed silently in the drawer.  Then one day Mary finished her battle with cancer and I was left alone.  I placed the card in a frame and put it in my kitchen.  Praying consistently for the marriage this little card spoke of.  I would move the frame from place to place; putting it on different counters and shelves.  Sometimes I would grow weary of not having what the card said and I would put it back in the drawer.  "That will show you I told the card"; but never giving up that I would have that one day. Tommy and I  moved into a small garden home thinking that was what we wanted since we were empty nesters. We cleaned out; down sized, gave away and thought we were settled. We were both looking for something.  The framed card moved with us.  On our last, and hopefully final move before heaven, the frame came to rest in the kitchen.  Always in plain sight , the verse beckoned me to pray earnestly toward the words it spoke.  Then one day life sent us a huge curve ball, breast cancer.  In the middle of the chaos the answer came.  All the pieces fell into place.  Don't ask me how since I certainly can't tell you.  I knew it when it happened though.  All the "other" was gone and left was this lovely, friendly, and charming relationship, communion, or company called a good marriage!  It's been almost three years now and it remains.  Unwavering and solid.  Nothing seems to desire to shake it.  In these past three years, while loving the place my marriage is,  I came to realize how this verse can apply to my relationship with God. The words ring true to what I want in this union with Christ.  Shouldn't I  desire the same lovely, friendly, and charming relationship, communion, or company with Him?  I love Him, I made a covenant with Him much like a marriage vow.  And over the course of the years while desiring the verse's call;  I have developed a deeper, stronger, purer relationship with Him because I desired it.    Psalm 38:9  "Lord, my desire if before You; and my sighing is not hidden from You."     Blessings.....